The weather has been a bit all over the place hasn’t it? One moment we have had beautiful sun kissed skies and the next torrential rains and thunderstorms!
Mother Nature’s whirlwind energy in the last few weeks has led me to reflect upon my own life journey. At times I have been engulfed in earthquakes and tornadoes which often left destruction and chaos in its wake for both myself and others. I created a lot of this damage myself and I now lovingly refer to this energy as my “messy middle”.
At other times I have sailed along upon smooth tranquil waters with ease and flow.
My reflections have helped me realise that it was the storms that often led me to those tranquil waters, they were meant to be and they actually fuelled the fire of deep transformation and change within my Soul.
The self-awareness that arose from my reflections all came from reliving and retelling stories from my life – I captured all of them in “moments”. An example of this was the moments that filled my life last week.
On Wednesday I sat hand in hand with my courageous and lion-hearted husband in a hospital waiting room anxiously waiting for the results of his yearly brain scan. In the last 7 years he has undergone two major brain surgeries and survived both of these unyielding storms.
As we waited, we spoke of “moments”. We reflected upon some of the moments of our 29-year marriage. Moments that hit us both hard; when we nearly separated because of my own messy middle; his journey living with a brain tumour and losing his short term memory for a few months; our travels which have taken us all around the world; sitting in floods of tears on the bathroom floor in our first home when we found out we were finally pregnant after 9 years of waiting for our little miracle – our beloved son.
A few minutes later we were given the news by the wonderful surgeon who has been part of our life journey that all was well. Our hearts began to beat once more. We took a deep inhale and then exhaled into the rest of our moments.
Just like the actual Lion’s Gate in Jerusalem this energy field is guarded by two Royal Sirian Lions who represent the “Lions of Yesterday and Tomorrow” in Sacred texts. This Lion energy took me once again to the “present moment” and an awareness of where my current life journey was going to next and as always, I turned to my tools of meditation and journaling in order to find the answers and the result is todays blog.
I am aware that it is only when I am grounded in the “present moment” that I am able to weather the storms around me. When I get caught up in thoughts of yesterday and tomorrow, I become lost in my messiness. I know this now. I have stepped through my own Lions Gate Portal in the last 7 years and I now live a truly authentic and conscious life.
There have been many people who have helped me on my healing journey – my husband, my son, my family and friends, my clients and a beautiful business mentor and spiritual midwife called Emily – but ultimately, I healed myself. I did this by CHOOSING ME.
To do this I had to stop running from the whirlwind of me and instead surrender and fall in to the safe sanctuary of my own arms. I had to surrender to my messiness and I had to listen to its wisdom.
Just like we often sit inside during thunderstorms we have to learn to sit inside with ourselves and our own moments, especially the not so good ones!
It was when I finally surrendered to the rain and storms within me that I found my rainbow.
I transcended my storms through reliving the moments of pain, discomfort, loss, sorrow and rejection and I rewrote them by speaking my truth, forgiving myself and ultimately learning to see the gold that lay within each difficult experience.
It was during these moments of surrender, which is often described as the “dark night of the Soul”, that I truly became conscious of my own spirituality and my Life Purpose.
It was in the midst of my own storm, my own messiness that I healed myself and I remembered who I truly am and what I came to Earth to experience. I am a healer and I came here to learn how to heal myself.
I am a Wayshower and I am here to guide others who are ready to awaken from their own storms and discover the gold that lies within. Now that I have healed myself, I am here to light the way and guide others who wish to heal themselves and assist them in creating a life they have always longed for.
I am whole and I am free and it feels good!!
On the subject of feeling good I am about to take some time out from what has been a very busy year for me since the last Lions Portal and immerse myself in some pottering over the next few weeks. Here I know I will be immersed in experiencing even more “precious moments”!
I will be reflecting once again on some of those storms and also the beautiful rainbows which were a result of these, such as the huge success in the last few years of the signature workshops, storytelling events and the Gold Within Wellbeing Programme which are all part of our I CHOOSE ME community.
Oh my, the souls on our Gold Within programme have really stepped in to their own storms through learning how to ground their energy and rewrite their stories. I am super, duper proud of them all.
They have as Brene Brown says, bravely stepped in to their vulnerability and chosen “courage over comfort” and as a result they are now creating a new life of freedom, peace, safety, love and abundance as they learnt how to let go of their stories of fear and lack. They were willing to change and as a result discovered a big shiny pot of gold at the end of the rainbow!
My darling you, I truly believe that you too are standing on the cusp of great change and it is my greatest wish to help you transmute and transform in 2020.
Before I can be of service to you however, I will be recharging my energy during the remaining weeks of summer and CHOOSING ME.
So, until we connect next, I invite you to immerse yourself in some I CHOOSE ME moments too.
The key here is to let go and surrender! The simplest way to do this is to buy yourself some bubbles! Yes bubbles!
Relax, connect with your breath and inhale and exhale as you blow those bubbles, reflecting as you do this upon your own life moments. Allow your Soul (and those bubbles) to guide you to where you truly want to journey to next.
You can blow bubbles anywhere, inside or out, no matter what the weather is!
Just like the weather change is on its way my friend and I’ll be back in the Autumn to assist you in navigating your way through this energy field.
Meantime enjoy your summer moments (and bubbles), I can’t wait to hear all about them!
Love and light always